Pervertness is in the ears of the beholder, I keep saying, so you might want to read the first sentence again with that in mind. And don't take this post too seriously either.
Because I play, I have a lot of geek-friends. For some it's true (not all) that they are not very active in the sexual field except that they are married to their right hand. I know guys who are close to my age and have never had a sexual relationship with the opposite sex (excuse my heteronormativity). People usually tend to think it's because they are too shy to make contact and in many cases that's probably true. But I think in some cases it's the "meh" effect. The guy standing there, looking at a pretty girl and wondering should he make a move, in the end comes to the conclusion "meh, why bother?".
He probably already knows a lot of cool girls via internet he can be flirting with and getting the feeling of couple or community. He spends his time in the wild wild world of internet that is full of pornography that can satisfy every guys aesthetic needs. Why would he approach the girl in RL when there's a possibility to get turned down, that the girl doesn't share any of the interests he has, that they don't even speak the same language ("I tried to talk to him the language of love but all he knew was C++")? What does he get out of an IRL relationship but trouble?
I'm not saying my guy-friends doesn't want it. Because they do. Oh boy do they...
But I think that when the moment is at hand they lose the inner struggle of their confidence to laziness. And deep down I think they all know that if they just made enough effort, they could get some...one. But there's just too much hassle. The change it would bring in life, not that they think it would be bad necessarily but why shake something that's already stable? Being alone doesn't make them happy, but it's much easier because the girls that attracts them have always been like a different specie.
How do I fit into this puzzle then? Either I'm old enough to be considered a motherlike figure to my geeky friends and I care for them like a good motherbear should. If I'm in a relationship, like I was my best geek-dating years, I was just the sister that can be teased but doesn't really know anything about nothing. I have no idea what I am now, but let's just say that there are not that much single nerdy girls this age (or any age).
I'm single because I'm looking for something perfect.
And you know... meh.
Going back to my first topic: Does sex really change that much? Can you ever shake the childishness in you if you don't get laid? Have we put so much weight in penetration that one can't even make himself feel like a man if he is still a virgin?
And the main question is: how much of a cougar and a cheap whore would I feel like if I'd test this theory in the name of science without any intentions of having any deeper feelings whatsoever towards that poor unfortunate soul?
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